Have you ever feel lost?

Assalamualaikum. 

I'm losing. I'm losing YOU and YOU and YOU.

Did I say something way too honest that made you run and hide like a scared little boy? -Taylor Swift

Did I made you unhappy and moody all the time? 

Did I treat you badly and made you feel insecure?

Did I annoy you and you just need some space? Is it? 

Did and did and did will never be enough, aren't they? 

Oh. Stop regretting and try to hush yourself. 

That was way too much of drama.

Life. Unpredictable. Same goes with humans. Unpredictable feelings.

Feelings which come and go just like touch and go card?

Too cheap yet so low to be called love. 

That is not the definition of love. Love is way too much. 

Nobody can describe love. It's universal.

You can love anyone. OR

You can love somebody at the moment and the next moment you are finding out that you are hating him. 

Isn't that not so delightful?

I thought. We were perfect although with the up and down did not discourage us still.

I cried silently myself to sleep. Hoping you will see me the same way I see you. But.

You will never see that through me, aren't you? 

You can see anything around me but my heart. Ever heard, " once broken, considered sold ?"

 This time. It is not sold. It's broken. And it broke for real. Real enough for no longer having those rainy days.

Dull. Gloom. Dark. I can't even see the sun shining right to me. Pathetic.

I'm lost. Sank in despair. Just like

A general without the army of soldiers

A principal without teachers and students

A captain without the sailors

or maybe..

 An angel without wings to fly back to heaven?

Yes. Love is blind. What should I say more of?

I'm hoping badly for you, I mean, the inner you. 

To come back to me. How I missed those warm days.

 I guess. This is enough. FULLSTOP.