CONTEST SEMPENA 3 SERIES : AYURASHIDAH

Assalamualaikum. 

Okey. Satu lagi contest. Kena buat ucapan atau karangan untuk ibu kerana melahirkan anda. 

I joined this as I felt sorry to myself for sometimes did not appreciate the one who loves me especially my mum.

Let's begin. :) This is my essay of short story.

     Dear Mum.

It took me a lot of time to think what to write about until lately. I was so far from you studying here in Perlis. Every minute of this speech making me realise that I miss you. I found courage to tell you things that I had not tell you ever before. Firstly. I would like to beg you although you might say just only ask. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not appreciating you all these time. I  remembered the moment where we had the biggest fight ever.  My legs were trembling that I can't hardly stand. How rude am I to you. For following my rebellious instinct to do everything that I think was right. Friends said " Remaja, biasa lah. " Narrow-minded and childish the other side of me which only you knew me well. Therefore, thank you shall I say to you. For giving born to me to live with you. For taking care of me. Teaching me. Couching me. Telling me things that I should know. For showing me which is right and which is wrong. For having a fight with me everyday. I love your opinions as they sound right. Trigger me to think hard, " Am i doing the right thing? " . Sometimes, I even write in a paper to tell you how much I hate you. How harsh I told you how much I do not need you in my life. THAT WAS A LIE. I wrote them just to make you upset. 

There were times where I do not trust you but I trusted my friends more as I lived in the hostel with them. I felt closer and safer with them that I poured every love to them but not you. Until, I learnt my lesson. You will still be the first in my heart although you always said that I love dad better than you. Actually I love you both. BOTH. BOTH. BOTH. I would sacrifice everything that I have just to make you happy. I would say stupid things just to make you smile. I miss your hugs and kisses. I asked you to kiss me but instead. You told me that I stinks . Ergh. Well, you were right. I had not a bath yet that morning. *LOL. But you kissed my brother. I was so jealous that I took the bath right away.! How childish I was.! I always say hurtful things to you. Not that I do not love you. But I do not know how to express them to you. I never cry in front of you when watching a very touchable movie with you cause I do not want you to think that I was weak. I was emotional. I was sensitive. I want to have a good impression in your eyes so that I could protect you. Although they were times where those uneducated yet foolish people kept on coming and hurt you, I was not there. I'm sorry. I studied hard so that I could be a Medic student. However, you did not want me to be that. I do not know about it until dad told me about it  last year. You just want me to spend the time with you. If I be a doctor, I would not have much time to fight with you again. *LOL. That was my main reason to be in this TESL programme. To become a lecturer as you admired them much. I have grown up so much that we rarely have fights anymore. Remember you asked me to talk with you or have a fight with you? And I asked for what? To my surprise, you said YOU MISSED ME. The tears welled in my eyes. I was so touched. Yes. But still. I won't cry in front you, mum.  Now, we do not fight anymore but we have all the evenings to ourselves sharing things among us and watch the sunset together every time when I was at home. However, I have the new trend. I will sulk every time I asked things that I did not get from you. I guess. I did not still grow up yet. 

Still want your attention! :)

Saying thank you will never be enough. But still. This is the best I can do. Thank you mother. Without you, this essay of you will never exist neither am I. 


I tag: Arsyad
         Hazwan
         Teha


Further inquiries of this contest : Ayurashidah 
Dateline: 25 Feb. 2011