Bang me

Peace be upon you. :)

I know. I should be taking a nap. 

What a breathtaking.

damn tired. For the past few days I haven't sleep well yet.

But some people don't even know it.

I got lots of stuffs to do. to think about. yet no one to pour with.

I can't contain everything. but still I have no one.

Some silly things get me frustrated easily.

I'm losing myself & my ship.

Still. I have no idea to begin with.

People will say. Yeah, deserve you for leaving him.

Oh. I'll say. Maybe yes and maybe not.

Am I being not patience enough?

emotional and being unprofessional.

Cool.

What should I do.

When people told me to get a life. not to talk too much. not to this and that. for almost everything.

It is quite saddening. coz I can't tell. I can't embraced. I can't do it.

Coz I really.. uhm..  But with all these circumstances. I just don't know. How long this can be.?

I'm being the pushy one. being too sensitive. being this and that.

I've been given too much critics and screwed.

yet. I do not own it. 

Sometimes. I don't feel I own the heart. 

It is such a heart breaking. for trying to hold on till the limits of your breath. 

It's like swimming with a scoop of air and you need air to breathe but you hold on. 

suffocated and drown into the world of your own. 

I might be bang by posting this.

yes. I know.

I need to take the risk.

For now. 

I might need a few fresh air and rest. 

Hopefully.